Heart of the matter

In life, only one thing is certain ,apart from death attacks you. No matter how hard you try , no matter how good your intentions are, you are going to make mistake. You are going to hurt people. You are going to get hurt. If you want to recover, there is only one thing you can say -and its always I-hate-you for me.

Forgive and forget -that’s what they say. It’s good advice but its not that practical. Because, when someone hurts us , we want to hurt them back. When someone wrongs us , we want to be right. Without forgiveness, old score are never settled. Old wounds never heal and the most we can hope for is someday , we will forget.

From Grey’s narration , epi 4 , season 4.

2.40am

God,I just cried when I read the message I left on my phone’s calender on 9 and 10 December 2006. I recall my phone rang on the bedside table. I was scared to show it to you back then. Now looking back, oh well.

Happy Easter ! =)

I saw Del put up her desktop in her blog.

I’ve got ntg else better to do, so this is mine. =)

from “stranger than fiction”,

is my life a comedy or a tragedy?

new rack!

new double decker rack

for our snacks!

many thanks to

Shafiq,

Shafiq’s bro &

Azra.

click for bigger view!

Last week!

These few days had been making me restless. There was so much happening around that I couldn’t feel anything anymore. The problem with people and me. Gosh, at least I’d grown up to live my own motto : “The world is harsh. Deal with it.”

Some part of me was trying to go back to the time when I had problems with my friends. The part where I confessed to their face that I don’t like you doing this and that. Some part of me was turning into the emotional Stella where I practically go crazy and refuse to accept rejections. Some part of me was about to jump off from the window if it wasn’t for the grill because my mother was driving me nuts.

Certain part of me just stare into the ceiling when I am on my bed , thinking about what to do tomorrow. ( I still do that every night – I have a nice cosmo ceiling )

Gosh don’t worry I am not going back to the past. I am not that naive. But looking back…hahahhahaha.