Happy new year 2008

new year resolutions? I’ll say come what may. I think new year resolutions is an absolute rubbish. You plan for the coming year but seriously, you are not that naive to think you can fulfill all of them , don’t you? Why do we have to make this resolution in the beginning of the year? We can make the change if we want to , anytime. Like they said, time and tide  wait for no man.

New year resolution is just a good practice that is still practiced by young and old. People are always dubious about when to make the change. Its ALWAYS difficult to start anything. Maybe, we are taking this opportunity to start something, although we know we may fail in the end. At least, we know we have tried.

Then, we come to talk about ambitious people with their high expectations for the new year. Its all big talk and little actions. Do remember when it comes to planning new year resolutions, leave some allowance for the unexpected. It may happen anytime in the year.

Although I may say I don’t believe much in new year resolutions , its still a tradition. Without it , the new year celebration will be mundane. Oh, come on who am I kidding , its always a good way to have a head start of the new year. ( at least you have something to tell people)

If I am to have a new year resolution , its about doing what is right the whole year through.

Argh , I am still stuck at home. So much for counting down with my family when my dad back stabbed us and countdown in jalan ang cheng ho with his buddies. Astro is temporarily unavailable due to heavy down pour. What a way to celebrate my new year. *curse, I should have reserved the car for use. My dad drove it away.*curse curse curse

Tck!

I am thinking too much. Even thinking what to write doesn’t feel right. When I think too much, I begin to imagine the picture larger than itself. It scares me to know more. It scares me not to know more , too. Yes , so it is to say I just realized something dead serious. I am keeping all of it to myself and it feels like I am stepping on an activated land mine. I am hoping for the mine not to detonate. Tck!

Merry Christmas

I am celebrating my Christmas in KL and hopefully somebody comes out with plans to celebrate NY. *hinting*

I won’t comment on what happened yesterday. My words are no good here. They don’t make any sense.

My first Xmas Pressie. Thx Jo!

  

Yes, sometimes my writing is very incoherent. You may think I want to give a cliffhanger that doesn’t workout. However, the most effective way I know I can improve my writing is to do free writing exercises regularly, blogging. They are sometimes called automatic writing , babbling or jabbering exercises. The idea is to simply write for a period of time. Don’t stop for anything. Go quickly without rushing. Never stop to look back , to cross over a word or thought to use, or to think about what I am doing. What happens to a free writing exercise is important. It must be a piece of writing which even if someone reads it, doesn’t send any ripples back to me. It is like writing something and putting it in a bottle in the sea. The teacherless class helps by providing maximum feedback and freewriting helps by providing no feedbacks at all. Basically, I fenced out any comments or insinuation whatsoever.

Freewriting is like singing. I can’t change my voice to suit the song. Same goes for my style of writing. Maybe you don’t like my voice , maybe people made fun of it. But its the only voice I have got. Its my only source of power. Ibetter get back into it, no matter what Ithink of it. If Ikeep writing in it, it may change into something Ilike better. But if Iabandon it, I am likely never have a voice and never be heard.

Freewritings are vacuums. Gradually I will begin to carry over into my regular writing some of the voice , force and connectedness that creep into those vacuums.

I am supporting my stand that I don’t care about writing as long as I keep writing.

Deep down I want to believe in fairy tales that people do actually come together and live happily ever after even for such short period of time. I know they sound pretty illogical and full of fantasies. Then , I ponder hard and long. It is like miracles, not impossible but least expected. Funny things do happen!

So, I am here to say I am in a jolly seasonal mood or maybe there is something more to it. Its that feeling again. Opposition from Meredith, its definitely the thrill of the chase.