i am not gonna love another.

finally sumthing to write abt , i broke up wif him this morning approximately 10.30am. still feeling heavy from last nite (been crying again) , as usual , i start my day by glueing myself to the pc. jz to know he can go online. over an argument abt not fixing his monitor sooner , we went across the topic of breaking up.

If there is no more feeling , there is no point of holding on. Honestly , i dun even know wad to feel anymore. so saddening. sumthing so meaningful became meaningless. although it hurts to learn how to forget all those armanda of memories , i will try.

everyone is imperfect. even bf can be imperfect. but all i ask for is a little more from him. nothing is impossible if u try. and there are those ppl who let things pass by , hoping it will go away. the lesson we learn here is nothing goes unaccomplished.

although we ve been this 4 times or even more , he still think he isnt ready to take the big leap. I guess he will never be ready. To grasp reality , much courage and responsible are needed. Of course , there are other reasons that contribute to this break up.

i am sorry too , it hav to end this way. no one is to be blamed. you broke up wif me.

 

but i don’t know why i still love u.